Monday, August 29, 2011

I am growing by leaps and bounds

There's never a cap on what can be learned. I have always considered myself technically challenged and cried for help from my kids or friends when I pushed a wrong button on the computer or anything else technical. When I accepted the invitation or call to go to China I knew it would be a challenge because I was told we would have to do power point presentations. It scared me but it didn't stop me. Feeling inspired by the whole concept of teaching Young Women in China how to take a stand and have a voice has pushed me like a bull dozer . The hoops I have jumped through each day has taught me anything is possible if there is a purpose or inspiration.
The first hoop was writing a resume, and a paragraph BIO of myself. It's hard to do that when I haven't always seen myself as amazing or remarkable. The next hoop was figuring out how to fill out a VISA on the computer and downloading Chinese adobe. Next, was mailing my passport to Phoenix to the woman's home in charge of Global Interactions. I did not register or expedite it. She never received it. I learned this while I was on vacation in Colorado. I panicked for a few hours and let it go until I got home. I found a passport bureau in Tucson and drove down there and got a new one for a mere $207 in 2 days. The day after Iwent to Tucson I received my old one back in the mail.I had sent it to the wrong address.I have been through rigorous
facilitator training , computer classes with a friend and gotten a lot of help from friends doing power point presentations. Let me just say I was  technically challenged, I am not proficient at anything but I am growing by leaps and bounds. I now carry around a flash-drive in my purse. I have been up late at night for the past 2 weeks  on the computer, not chatting, shopping or listening to music, but writing teaching modules . I am hopeful , excited, and  joyful about my experience and know it will be a wonderful time. For all those who have helped me I thank you. On top of the technical things I have learned the importance of living in the present. There really is nothing else. I don't want to live in the past, and I have no control of the future. I have had so much to do daily that If I would look ahead I panicked. If I lived daily and stayed present I did it without breakdowns. I am sold on the concept the  present is all we have live it well. I leave tomorrow !!!

I AM GOING TO CHINA!!!




I was told “If you don’t write it down it can’t happen.” So, I wrote it down, in fact I wrote a lot of things down. I have become quite a prolific writer of my thoughts and dreams. I have a story I would like to tell………About 6 months ago I attended a seminar (my husband and I are seminar junkies). I didn’t really want to be at this seminar, in fact I sat on the back row as he sat on the front row. I was feeling pretty lousy about my life at the time. My last child was about to graduate from high school and I wasn’t quite sure what I was supposed to be doing now. My job as a stay home mom was ending . What’s next? What now? These were my thoughts. While attending the seminar the speaker asked us what we wanted out of life? What did I want? I had no idea. There wasn’t anything calling to me or that I felt passionate about. Being dead, or without purpose and vision is a good definition of where I was at.
                The assignment in the seminar was to write down three things we wanted and tape it to the wall in the room with our name on it.  The things I wrote are now forgotten , but I remember some of the others papers. There were things like; get my carpet cleaned, get a new car, take my whole family out to dinner, take a vacation. I can’t remember what I wrote because they were just words on a paper, they lacked interest and passion.
                At the completion of the 2 day seminar I felt a little more alive and awake. I came home and created a vision board for my present and future. I had things I wanted to happen in areas of my life like: my relationship with my husband and others, my spiritual growth, how I can use my talents to serve the world and who will help me with that, my health, wealth and who I want to be known as. I read it every day for about a week, then maybe once a week, and it slowed down a bit.
                The things I wrote are on 3x5 cards taped to the wall next to my bed. In the past 6 months I glance at it every morning while stretching, but never read all of the cards. I’m giving a little background here for the miracle that has taken place in my life.
                My girlfriend met me for breakfast last Saturday to share an opportunity she had just learned about.  She said there’s a woman who started a World Academy for Women in China and she created it to help teach women to take a stand for themselves in the word as leaders. The next thing that came out of her mouth was, “she needs instructors, do you want to go?” I was inspired to the point of tears about the things she was saying . I quickly responded with “yes I want to go.”
                We met with the founder of The World Academy For Women on Monday and 3 hours later and a few more tears I was committed to the project. I left her home electrified, energized and feeling more alive than I had  felt in months. Here’s a purpose, a cause and a need, something I had been looking for.
                Sleep has left me because I am so inspired, excited and joyful.  The miracle in all of this is on my vision board on a 3x5 card is a statement that I wrote 6 months ago saying: “I want to help women in other countries to be more powerful and find their gifts.” When I wrote that statement I had no idea how or when that would happen. I simply wrote it because I wanted it .
                That card will soon become a reality as I become an instructor for a 5 week course at the World Academy for Women in China on August 30, 2011.
                What I have found through all of  this , is the value of having a vision for something, a purpose and a hope. When inspiration is not expressed you have depression. I’m actually excited to add more to my board now because there’s truth to writing it down and bringing it to creation.